i just wanna know; how far is heaven?

Wow I suddenly just remembered what I was doing 4 years ago on this day. And how far I've fallen since then (in certain aspects)... Then X pointed out that maybe it's just a cycle, that 4 years from now maybe I'd be doing something different, something better... something that isn't so mundane, or leaves me feeling so shitty... maybe I'd be graduating from a course I love, maybe into an amazing career, maybe attached and in love and maybe getting things wrong, too...

And I told him, "you think what? f(x)=f(x+4) is it?"... and we laughed.

I laughed.

Not because it was an extremely bad JC2 inside joke, but 'cos it's funny how 4 years flew by just like that. And maybe 4 years from now, I'd be writting on taste-the-fear.blogspot.com, "I can't believe what I was doing 4 years ago before my Chem paper, emoing about 14-year-old lost loves and wondering why the chemistry of life couldn't be as simple as d orbital splitting..."

On all the other mornings, I would go to school and talk to my friends and we'd be like "wah transition elements CMI" or "wah proteins CMI" or "aiyah nevermind la, just leave blank lor..."

Tomorrow morning I want everything to be different. I want to wake up and go, "transition elements must come out 'cos I studied like mad for it".

cobalt (II) is pink, nickel (II) is green, copper (II) is blue etc etc etc

Wahlauuuuu, the "Live On" ads all make my cryyy. I feel like going onto the HOTA website and signing up to donate all my organs now itself. :(

I think that means the ads are working. Though I've kinda always wanted to do that anyway. The body is temporary but the soul is eternal ha ha ha...

Whoa can you believe my brobro (yes I have taken to call him that hahahaha) and I are fighting for my parents attention? This has never happened in the 15 years we've spent together (ok as far as I can remember).

Taxi drivers from Pasir Ris are always so so so nice. The previous one made my heart ache so bad, cos he had pretty much no voice left and he was still so kind and didn't take the 40c and... I dunno, I feel like total shit when I'm sick and I would hate to sit in an aircon taxi full of uncaring passengers. :( :(
Today's one was adorable. He was telling me that whatever happens in my exams, I shouldn't force myself, just try my best. And when I was talking to Dad on the phone, he didn't interrupt my conversation, instead he used hand signals. Wahlau, how! :( I think I am either overly sensitive or overly emotional...or both, but such things touch me so deeply...

Sigh.

What a burnt tongue feels like: sand paper in your mouth
: ( : (

As hopeless and horrifying as GP was today, I guess I am done with it.

Maybe I could've worded my post differently...

GP was hopeless and horrifying today. BE THAT AS IT MAY, I guess I am done with it.

:P
JC2 inside joke ;)

Maths was not easy. And I'm one of the very few people who think that. :(

God have mercy on us all.

Vidushini got a message that on this day, God wants her to know that how bad things may look right now means nothing, - it's how good they can be with God's help that counts.

In life you can absolutely count on one thing, - everything can turn around in one day, in one minute sometimes. Don't you dare to give up, - you might be a moment away from a windfall.

Thanks GOD :)

I will Kick As(s) tomorrow.
Yes, I will.

The Day After Tomorrow

Funny how that movie was about the new Ice Age (i.e. Doom), huh?
Sometimes real life is exactly the same. Airconditioned halls included.

Today as I jumped around the house going, "omg A levels!!! How am I going to do?" my Momma told me, "I'm believing in God, not you".

3 things:
1. HAHA BBC World just told me that the Berlin Wall fell down by accident! Like, unplanned, unintended and unknown to the leaders of the country. Rofl how do these things happen?
2. I just saw The Bravery perform on the Conan O'Brian show and omg how on EARTH was I in love with Sam Endicott? Apart from his nguhhh voice, he is a really weird performer O_o
3. My momma just bought me a super duper purple compass. It's gay. I apologise for the misuse of that word, but it's just gay.

There is very little in this life that makes sense to me.

Awesome possum, Sachin Tendulkar! 17,000 runs! You da man :D

Even I set a record today... 1,460 posts whoo!

'Cos it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone...

:/ Feeling kinda wreckish today. I just want this to be over, you know? Whatever the results may be. I'm too tired. Mentally, physically and emotionally. Had a splitting today and crashed for an hour and a half in the afternoon. Woke up with an even bigger headache and like I'd just lost extremely precious time. Whoa now. I guess this is what it comes to after 3-4 weeks of forgoing afternoon naps of any sort (just to clarify, that doesn't say anything about my studying regime... I'm just really slow that whatever I plan runs hours longer than it's supposed to and I mostly stone while awake.) :/

V

Remember, remember, the Fifth of November!

Shit this is late, but oh well!

16th October
Last ever assembly

Farewell in the hall
Banner
Homeroom :)
Block E, 1st level, 3rd room... This was a blessing from God cos we never really had to climb any stairs. And were ridiculously close the canteen, toilets and vending machine. (y)
What it looks like on the inside (with random nonsense going on behind)
Class photo!!! :)
Another one :) this one is loads better I think (wrt me).
Listening to someone give their "speech" (dunno who)
Ms Wong!

Darren Vidhu Shila Karan :) This is a very J1 clique photo. When we were all slackerz. HAHA. Soon Siang is a shit photographer (despite being in photography club) so his finger made a blur at the top. Lame.
Girls outside! Love this pic :)
Bunch of girls inside. Amelin, Irene, Joanna, Kaini, Vidhu, Shila. (you can totally see my tear-stained face here, augh)
Though you know what is really lame, we didn't take any pics at all at nice parts of the school, like the LT or the garden or anything!

18th October - diwali cum surprise 18th!!(all credited to Ochie)
When they first surprised me! :D

I'm super happy!!!

Cake. My 18th + Lakshmi aunty's 50th.

Went to open presents! :) I screencapped this off the video Ochie took of me. So that's why it's pixelated.

TRULY love this pic (even tho we look kinda stupid) cos it features me and mah BFFL, Rach! :D She's adorable, really. Always full of laughter and sunshine and witty comments and GREAT BIG HUGS.

I find chocolate! (and I look totally ewww)

This is supposed to spell I-L-U but it looks like I-L-V and Ochie said that's ok, I love V works too ;) I-L-Them-All! (and they are not that short, they bent lower towards my height :P plus they are super gorgeous!)